September 13th, 2002

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Once upon a time it felt like the sky was falling, always. Once upon a time it felt like everything was on the verge of colapse, just one little push in the wrong direction and everything would come tumbling down around me. Nothing was safe or certain and everything had to be balanced very carefully. Life no longer feels this way. It is something I now miss.
Life no longer seems to need these careful cecks and balances, it has changed from a juggling act to a near static feeling. When everything was a balancing act I had to try, I had to keep it moving so the sky wouldn't fall. At least that way I had to do something, now it just seems to be a matter of coasting in all that I do.