June 7th, 2002

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She never could quite grasp the concept of time. She didn’t see how distance could be anything but physical. I told her about so many things, mostly it was pointless but sometimes she realised what I meant, it’s like when she looked at me she saw past the opinions but rarely. There were many things that she could not grasp and I spent many hours trying to explain emotions to her. She would look at me as though I fasinated her, as though I was something for her to study, more a project than anything else. We differed in so many things that I often wonder how we put up with each other for as long as we did. I was so self-imortant then and she would sigh and talk about my god complex, she had the most amazing sigh I have ever heard and when she said god you somehow knew that the g was not a capital one.
- Taken from an interview with someone who never was.

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I have this feeling that everything is about to fall apart. I don't like this feeling, it's full of fear and doubt, the worse thing about it is that whenever I've had this feeling in the past something has dropped away.